It is/was -7 degrees this morning. COLD! The coldest day of the winter so far (I think), if not, for the year. Have had a very crappy morning. My phone's touch screen went out, AGAIN! Second time this has happened on the second phone. They told me I have to pay for it to get fixed OR pay for a new phone. DON'T think so! I am going to go into the store and see what I can do. If not, I will cancel my contract. On top of that, I've lost ALL my pics and video of Jake since he was born. NO WAY to retrieve it =( even if they fix the touch scree, everything will be lost. And, to make matters worse, Marlie's phone is broken too. I HATE SAMSUNG! What crappy phones!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am not going to pay for their manufacturing failures!
Anyway, I guess I've put back on a lb. since I first started 'dieting'. Could be retaining water too. Who knows.
I talked with my chiropractor yesterday, and asked him what to do b/c I need to strengthen my whole body, in order to work on my core, so I can get rid of this ugly belly and be pain free. (For those who didn't know, I've had herniated disc issues since I was 25. Very hard on me b/c I was extremely active and loved to play sports!!!!!!!!! I'm also in pain everyday. Some days are better than others, but I still hurt...) He laughed and said he wished more people understood you have to strengthen everything to work on stabilizing the core. He said too many people think if they do sit ups, it will cure all. So, he suggested coming in to see Dr. Mike for a consultation. (He does rehab. However, rehab is a form of personal training, even though they don't advertise as such ;) He also suggested walking backwards on a treadmill. This forces the body to stand tall and works on the core area and gluts. SO, in my case, if my tush is strong and not so knotted up, it will help strengthen my core and my belly, and help ease my lower back pain. All I could think of was DUH! I wish I would have thought of that.... BUT, my treadmill's motor went out Tues... JEESH! Everything I use daily is breaking =( So, I will probably make an appt. with Dr. Mike and go from there. Just like any rehab or physical training, YOU are responsible for doing the work and sticking to it.... Not easy work either. Very painful at times. BUT, it is important to me, so I need to do what I need to do....
Back to food... still hard to 'diet' since I'm pumping. Hungry all the time. Not wanting to give it up yet, but, yet, am miserable looking preggers still. So, I guess I just need to be happy I have a beautiful healthy baby, and realize I am doing what's best for him by giving him my milk. Don't want to severely cut calories, b/c I won't be able to provide for him. Just hard looking at myself and trying not to be disgusted.... This, I understand is my own battle which I must conquer, but I don't think I'll ever be happy with my physical appearance until it's (my belly) gone (or as gone as much as it can be). So, until I'm ready to give up nursing, I will continue to battle this demon.... However, I have lost some weight, by making healthier choices. Now, if I can calm my cravings at times, I will continue to loose weight to an extent. Then, when I'm done completely with nursing, it will be a severe cut in calories and more drastic physical fitness. However, I can start working on the physical part now. Just hard to do when my treadmill is out and it's too cold to take the baby to the gym.... UUUGH! Just have to keep saying to myself, you can do it. It takes time. You'll get there. And, I need to stay as positive as possible. Just thankful I have a great support system!
Anyway, I made this sausage dinner with white beans recipe last night, and OMG! Sooooo goood! I can't wait to eat the left-overs. And, those who know me well know, I NEVER eat left overs if I don't have too. I always send them to work with Paul for his lunch. LOL! Good Stuff =D
Tonight, "Vampire Diaries" night. YAY! Always happy at 7 pm on Thursdays ;) Nothing like good food and mindless entertainment...
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